Sex, my Cherie Amor. Stressed but definitely not depressed.

Sex and how to deal with it on this blog is going to be something else. Like the beatings and the molestation I'm not going to tell you everytime it happened because it just happened to often with to many different females.

Lol, it's hard for me to write this because of the wording of it and trying to keep it appropriate for anyone to read. In case you hadn't noticed I tend to be a little blunt and tactless at the best of times. The proper wording doesn't elude me, it just sound so cold and sterile.

None of it was cold and sterile. It was mostly always wet, wild and one hell of a lot of fun. There are girls who don't like me anymore nor I them, now, but the sex we had was so good that now and then we could sleep together again. We just can't live together or be a couple.

That's not unusual for me. I had good teachers and I find that getting turned on is a big circle if done correctly. Lol, unlike most men I happen to like a lot of foreplay. I like to tease and contrary to what you might think I'm very soft, sensual and gentle in bed.

I was driving with a couple of guys today, from India, and they wanted to know how many women I'd been with. I didn't tell them but they stopped guessing after they hit 200. They weren't even in the ball park as you'll see later on.

Heh, I probably should have seen a shrink about that too but it was never something that bothered me. Still doesn't bother me but I realized that I was looking for love from any woman that would give it to me. Yeah, yeah, I know, to replace or make up for the love I never got from my mother.

Unfortunately for the ladies I wasn't capable of loving back. Just of breaking up and moving on when I met the next one who excited me. With one exception from the time I was 13 to 36 long term relationships just never worked. Yeah, I know, that was my fault too. WTH you expect with the way I was raised?

The way I was I probably cheated at least twice in even a two week relationship. Sex just seemed to fall into my lap. Pun intended. Still does. I seldom pursue any woman and if I do it's not for long. Mostly they chase me. Probably because I just don't pay much attention to any of them.

I was also a bad boy, the kind your mother didn't want you to meet. Naturally, rebellious girls wanted to be with me. It was just to easy most of the time.

So, anyway, I met Cherie that night. She asked where we could go and I said the only place I knew was my stepfathers car. So that's where we went. It was dark out and no one was likely to pay any attention to us parked in back of the bar.

She took the lead in everything because I flat out didn't know what to do and watching Beaver Cleaver certainly didn't each me anything. Cherie did tho.

She taught me some of the finer points of kissing and we kissed and touched for a long time. Almost to long. At least she was wearing a pair of short shorts and the usual tight sweater. Damn, she had really nice boobs. Oh hell, everything Cherie had was nice.

She gave me my first fellatio in the back of that car. Lol, not that it lasted long. Anyway, eventually we both ended up naked and she was breathing as hard as I was. We touched each other until I just couldn't stand it and begged her to let me have sex with her.

I do distinguish between having sex, making love and plain out hard core screwing. I seldom make love. I doubt I've told 10 women in my ife that I loved them. Maybe half of those I meant it really, the other half I just thought I did. Altho I did really rerealy like some of them.

Back to Cherie and I in the car. I had no clue what to do next so she showed me that too. She got underneath me and I stabbed ineffectively until she finally grabbed it and put it in for me. Then she started moving and it lasted about two whole minutes.

I loved it, it made me feel so close to her and I wanted to do it again and again and again. Lol, here comes the kicker, Cherie told me after we got dressed that we could do it together anytime I wanted. However it was going to cost me a quarter every time.

I could afford it so we spent pretty much every night that we could, together having sex. I couldn't get enough of the feelings or the closeness. It was great. The greatest thing ever. I know now that there are more important things but there weren't back then.

Sure, I still prefer hot, skinny, small breasted chicks in their 20's. Always have and always will but now at my age and health I find her mind to be more intriguing than I do the sex. There's another reason I still get different women without trying to hard at all.

I dated the oldest woman, last month that I'd dated since I was 17. She was all of 40. As silly and confused as most otf the 20 somethings tho. Now I've been semi dating a woman who is 53. We have a lot in common and I like that. She's not as young as I'd like but she understand me with out explanations. She thinks like I do and she's pretty enough for me

I feel like a stupid teenager with her. Don't act like I normally do. She makes me nervous because she's not near as forward as the rest of the girls I know. I actually have to pursue her and I don't really know how anymore. Rejections scares the hell out of me sometimes and this is one of those times.

Cherie and I had a lot of sex together before I moved. She taught me to kiss and I never had a complaint from anyone. Heh, even tho she was charging me a quarter she always made sure she came too. However she was not my girlfriend. Never was. We just had an arrangement we both really enjoyed.

Don't know what happened to her after I left but I hope she turned out okay. Somehow I suspect she turned out about like I did. To bad for her. I hope, for her sake, that she's happier than I am.

Akk the times we were doing it I didn't care about anything else. Heh, I could think of what Cherie and I did the night before, during a beating, and smile while getting beaten. Used to really piss my mother off.

I've never forgotten Cherie getting naked for us and for having sex with me and teaching me some things. The times I spent with her were some of the happiest I'd ever had.

Cherie finally gets herself naked and I get adrenaline

Cherie was teasing us a lot with glimpses of her cotton bra and panties. Her petticoats were very sexy as I said before.

She had pulled her sweater up so we could see her soft flat stomach. You have to remember, this was a big deal back then. Women and girls just didn't show their bodies like the do now. Way back then just to get a glimpse of panties was a rarity let alone seeing any skin.

Then she took off her skirt and laid it on a clean spot on the ground. While she's doing this she's giggling and laughing and teasing us about what we are going to see. All we want her to do is hurry up. Lol, I wouldn't be a bit surprised if she became a stripper or exotic dancer a few years later.

She had us so hot and horny we could hardly wait. Us guys were all dancing around like we had ants in our pants. We kept telling her to hurry up and she just laughed at us. She wasn't worried about getting caught but we were and we didn't want that to happen until after we'd seen her naked.

She removed all or her petticoats except the final one and the she pulled off her sweater. Next she pulled her panties down but we still couldn't see anything because she still had the damn petticoat thing on. Sheesh, she was making it take forever. Just realized where it came from but I still love to be teased, like that, by women.

I can watch them sit around or walk around in their panties and bra's for hours. Had a girlfriend who used to take forever to do her hair and makeup and I'd lay in bed and just watch her. She usually wore a thong and no bra and watching her body move was a great turn on.

Cherie finally took her bra off and we were in rapture. Her breasts were the most beautiful things I'd ever seen. She asked if we wanted to touch them and naturally we all said yes.

They were so soft, warm and silky I couldn't believe it. Her nipples were poking out and were very hard. Lol, bet they weren't as hard as us boys were tho. We touched them for a couple of minutes and then started telling her to take the last petticoat off.

She did and once again it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. She was standing there naked and she slowly turned so we could see her from all sides. She let us touch here anywhere we wanted and boy did we touch her. All over.

I was more interested in her breasts and her butt than I was in her crotch. I held her from behind and cupped her lovely warm breasts in my hands. Damn that felt good. My hips were moving back and forth all on their own. Lol, I had no idea what I was doing but I was enjoying it to the max.

After about 10 minutes she told us she had to get dressed and go. We didn't want her to leave but she said she had to get home. While she was getting dressed the other three guys climbed out and I stayed down in the window well with her.

She told me if I wanted to have even more fun she would meet me that night. Naturally I said yes. I was in for an even bigger surprise when I met her that night.

I had so much adrenaline going at this point I was shaking like a leaf in a strong wind. Damn I loved the way it felt and the way her soft skin felt. I wanted more, more, more.