Most people tell me how glad they are that they came across my depressed blog and how it makes them feel to know they aren't the only ones things like this happened to.
I was just looking at the directory in Outlook, where my emails get sorted out and started rereading some of the ones I got when it struck me about the emails and comments.
I suppose it makes good sense as most people who are abused, beaten, sexually molested or abused and mentally abused just don;t want anyone else to know about it. That makes them afraid to leave a comment as they think someone might recognize them.
That's really sad that they are ashamed of something that happened to them that they had no control over.Yeah, I know all about that part of it. I didn't even begin to talk about it until I was 50 and that was at least 35 years after the fact.
I was always ashamed, worried about what other people would think of me, afraid they'd think I liked it or asked for it, etc. Well, like the people who email me, I hated it and like the vast majority of them, when I got old enough to do something about it, I did.
If I was still as depressed as I was when I started this blog about my life story I'd have burst into tears while I was reading the emails. Heh, at least writing this has helped me get a lot better.
I don't see myself as a helpful person and I didn't do this with the intent to help anyone but myself so the fact that I have kind of surprises me but I'm glad about it. It also makes me feel better and that's a nice thing.
Anyway, I hope the people who feel like they are the only ones things like this happened to start to post because then this place will help even more people. Reality is being abused happened to a lot of people, being sexually abused happened to a lot of people who are as old as I am.
Instead of being prosecuted back then it was hidden, usually in a conspiracy of family members to either deny it happened, blaming the child was also popular or just plain refusing to talk about it at all.
It would have embarrased a family way more back then that it does now, to have a child molestor in the family, and the whole family would have been talked bad about by most people and shunned or semi shunned by a whole lot of people.
So please help other people like you by posting a comment. If you want to feel more connected to a group who know how you feel then tell others about your experiences. It will make you feel better and it will help others.